I realized that GOD seriously provides miracles in our lives.
My financial situations been in a big wreck lately after the death of my grandma. My parents barely have any money, or in a sense that they don’t have any money, and that I was hoping to give my financial aid money to them. But then I heard that I wasn’t going to get any financial aid because of my academic probation.
But today, I woke up today to find out that I’m actually getting my financial aid. I really thought I wouldn’t be able to go to school because I wasn’t going to get any financial aid but then I got the email that said that I’m getting it so I was really relieved.
Also, I came home today to see that I had mail. It was the paper work for the accident that I got into in May. I’m happy that the case is getting done because its been stressful having to deal with all of this even though I really didn’t have much to with the case of dealing with it because the lawyer did all the work but still. I’m greatful that I had a lawyer that actually took care of Jessica and I. I found out that we were getting roughly $1700 each and I was really shocked because I didn’t know that we would get money out of it.
But with all of this being said, I’m not really excited to get the money. A lot of it is going towards my parents because of the financial state that we are in. We have to pay off a lot of bills and the rent. Also, I have to pay of my credit card bill that I went over. >< oopsies. Hehe.
Enough with that.
Today I went to prayer meeting. Honestly, I didn’t go with the mind set that I was going to pray because my head was hurting a lot so I didn’t really want to talk and such. But when I got there and heard of all the things that we were going to pray for, I truly and honestly prayed my heart out. So many things are going on in this world. Scary things I must say. There are times when I really don’t know what it’s personally like to go through things others are going through such as the mishap in Haiti. I was really sad to hear about the news. I wish there was something I could do such as just giving my time and volunteering to help out those that are in need. During prayer meeting, I was hoping to talk to someone about things that I was going through, but I didn’t. I felt like there was so much more that we needed to pray for that my life could be put on pause until things that are more important are let out.
I’m truly thankful for all the people that I have. I always say that I feel like I have no one, but honestly, I know that I have so much more then what I deserve.
“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that frightens us most. We ask ourselves, “Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and famous?” Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that people won’t feel insecure around you. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It’s not just in some of us; it’s in all of us. And when we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”